My Brookie Lies Over the Ocean

She's crossing the Pacific right now. We put her on the plane last night. I'm already having trouble this morning remembering what her face looks like. I didn't want that to happen. I cried uncontrollably as I left her presence. She is such a safe harbor to me. Such a great daughter. Such a faithful friend. Such a huge heart for her God that she has found! And, she's gone to do the will of Him who has called her half way around the world. So I unclench my fist and let her go. So, I applied to work at an airline last night to get benefits. LOL. I really did. She will be gone for another couple of years. I won't see her face. I won't be in her presence. Maybe I'll get the job. Maybe not. What does my God want?

This posted picture lingers in my mind this morning. My four kids so love music. And now...so do I! I'll miss her playing the piano, listening to Robbie Seay in the car (she politely listened to my music, too, but I am just discovering people that have been around for ages!)... speaking of that kid...Robbie Seay so brings God to me. Have you heard him on the American Idol theme song?

Click on this link to hear his song RISE in their tv ad promoting the upcoming season for AI. Sing a Song of Hope...Sing along ...God of Heaven come down---on all of us!!! Here's the RISE song---don't you love it??? http://slimtainment.com/idolblog/982 (my first attempt at a link, in case it didn't work!) Hope they include it in the show---I hope I hear somebody sing that song!

Back to Brookie 2 Shoes...she is somewhere across the Pacific Ocean as I write. This mom couldn't get enough of the Jesus in her when she was here. I'll remember laughing till I had to leave the table to avoid choking, not being able to catch my breath, at Don Pablo's. I'll remember sobbing as we sat in the Honda (we don't have a Honda anymore---you know, it's the black car) in the driveway one afternoon talking about our lives and how much we were finding God and wanted to find Him. I'll remember the moment of asking my children to forgive me for what I had done to them in my parenting---conscientious but clueless at times, wanting so much for life to work and not to miss our God. I'll remember my youngest saying---every one at this table who thinks mom did a great job with us, RAISE YOUR HAND. They all raised their hands. Some day, they'll realize how, actually they already know, how I "missed" them in their worlds. But hallelujah! we have this moment today, a redeemed moment to deal with the fray of our hearts and find HIM. For it is the kindness of our God, Romans 2:4, that leads us to repentance. Remember my girl over the Pacific today.

And the real reason I came to post is this---I waited until she left to get back on to my computer. I have been so touched by the journey we are on reading through the Bible together. I commented on my post Monday Morning, Cover to Cover to each of you who left a COMMENT. I probably left about 15 comments so if you commented on that post, you have a comment from my heart. You can go to that post and click on COMMENTS and read what I would say back to you if we were having a cup of coffee. Whew! I had a hard time getting that out.

I am going to post, probably tomorrow, what I prayed for those of you in our Cover to Cover study the first week. So, jump back again, and know that you are prayed for and loved so much this day. And pray for this mother's meltdown. The good news is that my oldest son graduated from Nebraska grad school at Christmas and moved home yesterday for about six weeks. First thing he did---tore down the wallpaper in Brooke's room and he's up there PAINTING it. And throwing stuff away---what a help to me! So thrilled to have my boy home for a few weeks before he leaves for FRANCE for good. And here we go again!

Bring back my Brookie to me...someday!