Learning to Live in the Present Moment

TUESDAY UPDATE: I am up for just a moment to say that I made it back home to Fort Worth pretty well in a wheelchair all the way--I felt 90 years old. I just sobbed on the plane and people didn't quite know what to do with me. I still have severe back and now it is chest pains too and weakness all over, and swelling from my head to my feet, and can't even stand up alone real well at all. This is so scary to me as there is something really wrong with my body. I leave for the doctor in an hour. Will post back here when I can. I really can't go to anyone's blog or read anything, I'm just too weak. I wish I could, but I'll be back. Please pray for me that I recover quickly and they find out what this is. Thanks so much, Bev

I am here for just a few minutes to wish you a Happy Easter. Blogland has meant so very much to me. My beautiful God has really used you in my life as I am learning to better live in the present and see the Face and Hand of my God as I wrestle through deep issues in my life. In C.S. Lewis's "The Last Battle," one of the ending scenes is where a group of dwarves are huddled together tightly around Aslan, thinking they are in a pitch black stable with him. But the truth is that they are in a meadowside of endless green grassy countryside (just like the Napa countryside meadow where I stood this very day). They have no idea where they are. The dwarves are kneeling in a circle around the lion, burying their hands and faces in his mane as he stooped his great head to touch them with his tongue, Aslan offers them wine and they think it is ditch water. Aslan offers them great food and they think it is offal. This story so speaks to me this Easter as I open my eyes to really see all that my good and sovereign and beautiful God has done for me these past two years. All that He offers. My love has been lost sometimes in my fears but no more. "Perfect Love casts out fear." I John 4:18. My prayer for each of you this Easter as the stone has been rolled away and they have witnessed what He has done leaving his folded garments which symbolized to them---"it is done." The battle has been won that we enter even this day. Oh my goodness! My prayer is Eph 1:17-19, may He open the eyes of your heart to see things as He does---all that He is doing in your life.

I am at a destination wedding in California and trying to get back to Fort Worth. I was able to attend the wedding, set in a Napa Valley countryside meadow, much like in the story of The Last Battle. That's what made that story come alive for me. Please pray for me. As you know, I broke my toe last week and then pulled a muscle in my back as I was dodging a flying object in my kitchen. I have suffered greatly with my back on this trip. Now I have chest pains too. I have tried for the past four days to put up a post but couldn't do it nor could I make it to any blog.

It's my nephew's wedding---my sister's youngest boy--- and he is a doctor and so I have been taken care of well. But, I can barely walk. Literally. There is something that has gone very wrong with me. I really need your prayers that I am able to make it home tomorrow on an afternoon flight. My back pain has increased every day and it is some of the most uncomfortable feelings I have known. I need to end here as I got up for just a few minutes as I have wanted so much to wish each of you Happy Easter on Resurrection Sunday to those of you who have been so very kind to me, the hands and fingers of God in my life these past few months. Thank you for allowing the beautiful God in you to rise up to bless me and encourage me and stir me on. I have so much hope in my heart tonight even in the midst of all that is going on with Bob and me. And I know that is God! May we all have eyes to see tonight what He is offering to each of us this Resurrection Sunday.

If I am not able to post for the Monday Morning post which I don't think I will be able to do, you know why. Go ahead and post your comments on your blog. I'll get one up as soon as I can. I know what I want to say.

May God's perfect love cast out fear. May the love that we have for our husbands, our children, our ministries not be lost in fear, anxiety, or power struggles.

Learning to Live in the Present Moment with you and listen to Him and to what's happening in my inner world,
Much Love to each of you, Happy Easter! He is alive in you and me! So moved by that stone being rolled away! Bev