He is the Lifter of My Head

UPDATE: I was all dressed for a potential job interview this morning for a teaching position. I even took off from my regular sub job and lost that pay for today. I called before I went to hear that the job was filled. My cell is broken and voice mail doesn't register right away so I missed their call to come yesterday. It's the third job with our local public school district that has fallen through for me. Three jobs slipped through my fingers. Disappointing to say the least. So, I lift up my head...and ask for your prayers for jobs real soon.

A couple of years ago, my husband lost his ministry position and I went through the hardest season of my life ever. Major meltdown. I couldn't physically stop what happened to my body as the depression sidelined me. I had been an overcomer my whole Christian life or so I thought. It was as though God was bringing me to the end of myself.

I held fast to HIM who holds our lives together. I listened long for His Voice. And I heard it over and over again even as I grew physically weaker. One thing God did was to speak the same verses to me over and over from surprising directions. He's still doing it. Psalm 3:3 was a verse that my beautiful God gave me during that time---- that HE is the lifter of my head. And when I thought I could lift my head no more from the depression, He lifted it for me. And then He sent people to tell me that He was the lifter of my head.

I remember a dear friend in our Daniel study asking our Beth Moore Bible Study to come pray for her healing as she was diagnosed with cancer. We got on our faces with and for our precious friend's life. And, I remember thinking to myself, unless you lift my head, I don't know how I will make it either, God. As we walked to the door to leave, Lori's parting words to me were this: "HE is the lifter of your head, Bev." Her words fell deep in my soul as I sobbed on the drive home praising HIM for what only HE could do in my life. And He did! He lifted my head!

And it happened again and again that I would hear that verse or someone would say it to me. Many of you know that I have been sick these past weeks with my kidneys shutting down. My husband is out of work, waiting on another construction contract to come in, picking up odd jobs. When I got back on my feet, I realized how behind I am in finding my own job along with things undone. As I read the story of Gideon, I asked my beautiful God if HE would speak to me and let me know that He is near.

Someone, whom I don't know, was walking out of the door of a conference and turned around and came back inside, walked right up to me, and said that she was so impressed to approach me and tell me this: "The Lord wants me to tell you that HE is near to you." It was such a sweet moment of His Presence for me.

Then, yesterday, I received a note in snail mail from a blogger named Mary Lou, my new friend. She wrote: "I have no idea why He has impressed me to write you and you probably won't either, but I am obeying." Mary Lou shared precious thoughts with me from her own walk. It was kindness well received. Not sure why she wrote, really. That is, until she signed her name:
Mary Lou, Psalm 3:3 "He is the lifter of your head"

There are 31,240 verses and she chose the one that would fall deep in the recesses of my heart. Matthew 10:20 says that God will give you the words to speak. Just keep walking with HIM. Don't seek great things for yourself - Jer. 45:5. Don't try to find the words yourself. You really can't. Let HIM speak through you.

So what is God saying to you right now? Share with us. We'd love to hear His words to you.