THREE DAYS IN DENTON...
Spent past three days in DENTON at Britt's basketball tournament, Denton Shoot-Out, with so many teams---like scores of teams. Won our first five games---woo hoo!---then lost tonight and we are back home in Benbrook.
All day long a song has been going through my head, "Better is One Day" in My House than a thousand elsewhere and I found out in church this morning that the "elsewhere" in Psalm 84 means "of your choice"---like a basketball game OR a place we go in our thinking when we make bad choices...like pretending everything is okay when it really is not...pretending that we are not angry...pretending that we are happy...pretending that I am not hurt when I am bleeding...pretending all is well with my walk with God when I feel His absence.
All I have is this day, this moment to live----however many more breaths God gives and I don't want to live in pretense. Better is one day with our God than anything this life has to offer...any event, any experience of our choice. So where am I spending my days "elsewhere?" I so long for eyes to see what I am really doing with my life. I so want to change and live free-er than ever.
Have thought so much this 4th of July week about freedom...what does freedom look like when we live free to love our husband, our children, our friends...what does it mean to love well, to live well, to suffer well, to serve well... . A friend of mine says freedom comes first then love---how can we love if we are not free?
I've also been thinking about a quote from Mere Christianity. C.S. Lewis wrote: "No man knows how bad he is until he has tried very hard to be good." I am amazed tonight trying to comprehend that all our sin, all our darkness doesn't require me to perform to overcome it. It's already taken care of.
Someone said to me this week: if you are 2 months pregnant, how do you get to 9 months? Can't make it there overnight. Can't force that growth---growth will occur. But I can quit trying so hard to make it happen...I can surrender to find rest in my God's sovereign loving hand and plan. So what does that look like tonight? Right where I am ...
Back in Benbrook once again and better is one day with Him than where?
Tonight is Britt's birthday party at The Main Event from 6-10pm...would you like to play a video game vicariously Brooke? Join Britt & The Main Event crowd and send him a text tonight 817.915.3349 for his birthday.
Sunday, July 8, 2007
THREE DAYS IN DENTON...